A reflective space where I explore personal insights, life philosophies, and the lessons drawn from my studies and experiences.
©2026 xunholyanubisx When I think about social classes and the stereotypes surrounding who gets to call themselves a “real author,” I feel a familiar frustration rising in my chest. There’s an unspoken hierarchy in the literary world—one that suggests legitimacy comes from a traditional publishing deal, a physical book on a shelf, and an advance …
Continue reading Gatekeeping Ink: Who Decides a Writer’s Worth?
The Beautiful Feast of the Valley—Heb Nefer en Inet—was not a mourning. Let me be clear from the start: this was a celebration. Every year, as the Nile's summer heat began to haze the horizon, the living would cross the river to the west bank of Thebes. Not to weep. To feast. Imagine the tomb …
Continue reading The Living Feast: A Cross-River Elegy for Two Kinds of Remembering
I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about Osiris—not as a distant god carved into temple walls, but as someone who once walked, breathed, ruled, was betrayed, and then chose to rise differently. If I imagine him looking at today’s world, I don’t think he’d be shocked by the hardships. Hunger, injustice, the weight of …
Continue reading Hallowed Ordinary: Walking Awake in the Shadow of Osiris
If the ghosts of ancient Sparta were to walk among us today, I don't think they would be found on a movie set, muscles glistening under fake oil. I think they would be utterly horrified. Their entire identity was forged in the crucible of a single, brutal idea: total dedication to the state. To transplant …
The ancient Egyptian Duat is often flattened in modern imagination into a mere "underworld," a shadowy kingdom of the dead. Yet to reduce it to a single-plane afterlife is to miss its profound philosophical depth. The Duat was not a final destination, but a dynamic, transformative process—a cosmic engine of regeneration where geography, ontology, and …
There are moments in study when facts stop being facts and quietly turn into reverence. Learning about the upcoming Abu Simbel Sun Festival was one of those moments for me. Twice a year—around February 22 and October 22—the rising sun travels deep into the Great Temple of Abu Simbel and illuminates the statues seated in …
“Chivalry is everlasting, for Glory lies faint” The words I live by are simple, but they carry weight: chivalry over glory. Glory is loud. It wants to be seen, praised, remembered. Chivalry is quieter—it shows up when no one is watching, when there’s nothing to gain except knowing you did right by someone else. I …
Introduction My research into Khnum, one of the oldest deities in the ancient Egyptian pantheon, began as a curiosity and grew into a deeper investigation of how the Egyptians understood creation, divinity, and humanity itself. Khnum is often described simply as a ram‑headed god and a creator figure, but this description barely scratches the surface. …
Continue reading A haping Life from the Clay: A Thesis on Khnum
My path has always been drawn toward the old currents—those sacred systems that understood the world as alive, cyclical, and bound by divine order. Among them, the Egyptian cult of Isis stands as one of the most profound and enduring spiritual traditions I have studied. Isis is not simply a goddess of myth; she is …
Continue reading Veiled in Power: My Studies of the Cult of Isis and Her Priestesses
Here is what my philosphy is on a Egyptian Princess/Queen sworn to marry a foreign prince that never made it to her homeland. My Historical–Philosophical Interpretation Preface: Method and Intent The historical record of Queen Ankhesenamun—daughter of Akhenaten, wife of Tutankhamun, and later consort to Ay—is notably fragmented. While inscriptions and diplomatic correspondence outline her …